The Proposal

The Proposal

I dreamed about the day that I would be able to have a proper proposal and a dream husband. Too often it felt like just a distant fantasy that probably wouldn’t happen the way I thought it would. I got to a place where I just decided to give it to God. I knew that I wanted to be married again, but I wasn’t confident that it would become a reality. Finally, I realized that I had no other choice but to trust God. I told Him what I wanted, and I left it at that.

It’s so amazing to me how God’s plan is always so much better than our plan. There were so many days that I lost patience, but God always found ways to show me that He was still in control. I never in my wildest dreams imagined how this moment would actually feel. I prayed for this day for so long and when it finally happened, I just couldn’t believe that God loved me so much that He allowed me to be standing in the moment.

The moment that I saw his face, I knew what was about to happen. I was instantly overcome with a wave of emotions. First, I was excited to see him, because it had been ten weeks exactly since I last laid eyes on him in person. Ten weeks felt like a whole year, and I was completely over the distance at that point. Secondly, I felt loved that he would go through so much just to surprise me with his visit. Thirdly, can I just say that my man is so dang fine lol. I will never forget that bowtie that stuck out to me and just how handsome he looked. Next, I couldn’t believe he had my mom right there. I felt appreciation for him knowing that I would want someone from my family to be present for this momentous occasion. Then, I felt butterflies! Butterflies because my heart fluttered like a girl in love for the first time. I felt so loved, desired, and appreciated. Lastly, I was in shock. I was in shock because after all I’ve been through, someone could still love me.

One of the things that really stuck out to me was that although being apart is awful, the distance is what confirmed for him that he didn’t want to be without me. In that moment, every single second that we were apart, was 100% worth it. This man really wants me to be his wife? That was the question in my head. Which quickly turned into a statement… This man wants me to be his wife!

The proposal was absolutely perfect! I can’t wait to marry this amazing man. He is truly my best friend, hero, partner, and gift from God. I truly believe that everything we have gone through prior to meeting one another, was just preparation for this day. We were always meant to be together, even before we even knew each other’s names. God always has a plan, even when it may not seem like there is a chance for you to be truly happy. God has the final say.

- Future Mrs. Harrison