Journal

"Journal" Casey J (Read to the End)

Failure

Not worth it

It's too late to start again

And I'm sure I'm useless in the hands of the Creator

I'm not enough to salvage

And I'm not enough to build with

So don't try

No, I won't try

But then came your word

Healing

Affirming Word

Write it on my heart

Write it on my mind

So I'll never forget it

Your word

[x2]

Walking around

Fearful

What if someone finds out the truth

That I'm shattered

Pieced together by the love of You

Not worthy of Your attention

I'm so guilty and ashamed

Please don't use me

No, you can't use me

But here comes your Word

Healing

Affirming Word

Write it on my heart

Write it on my mind

So I'll never forget it

Your word

I believe

What you think about me

So I'll repeat the confessions of Your love for me

Now I breathe

The life of Your Word in me

So I'll never forget it

This song is so close to my heart. So many people have told me that I made my life look easy for what it was. They had no idea that I was literally dying inside. This song is a good representation of how I often felt. I really am just pieced together by the love of God. I have struggled over the years with feeling worthy of love because of my situation. I felt like I was completely forgotten about and that no one cared what I was dealing with. I carried so much inside and never spoke of it to anyone because I felt like no one would care. I was so weighed down with burdens.

I shared that to say that God is able! I am not completely healed from my past by any means. Some days the wound feels like it’s still so fresh. However, God is able to grant peace in the middle of the storm. He will see you through whatever it is that you are going through. Everyday won’t be easy. There are plenty of days that I still cry as if it all just happened yesterday. Some days I don’t want to go anywhere or do anything. BUT…. There is one thing that I know how to do, and that is PRAY! I know that God hears me because He has proven it to me tine and time again. I know it won’t always hurt. We are overcomers and the victory is already ours. We just have to trust and believe in His plan and His ways. No matter how rough the sea gets, trust in Him. Believe that He can and He will heal all wounds.