You're Not Alone! You Can Make It!

So as I was up late last night, it hit me why I feel a certain way in certain situations. Over the years, I have lacked confidence and had very low self-esteem. I've never really shared that with anyone, but it's something I dealt with for quite some time. Even to this day I have moments when it tries to come back and resurface.

It got me thinking of the root of all of this. At what point did I start to feel so worthless. I know I'm not the only person who has ever felt like this. For me, I think it was early disappoints in my life. For a long time I always felt like I disappointed my family. Like I was never good enough for them. No matter what I did, I felt like I never made them proud. Now that's just my perception. I always felt like the mess up of the group.

Later on, it was my marriage. People always seemed to have their stupid unsolicited opinions about how I should conduct myself as a wife, or how I should handle my very different situation. The funny part is that no one had experience with what I was going through. The people who were supposed to care about me, spoke ill of me instead of lifting me up. They were quick to believe every lie they heard about me. No matter what went wrong in my situation, it was always my fault. People really have no idea how much their words hurt. There were many days that I felt like I could just lay down and die. I am truly thankful for my relationship with God that has literally saved my life. People will let you down. To this day, the people I thought loved me the most, have not shown their support at all. This past year, has been one of the hardest years in my life, but guess what???? I MADE IT!

This all left me feeling like I would never be good enough for anyone. Which could be true in someones eyes. However, I am okay with just being good enough for me. It's not always easy, and I don't want to ever make it sound easy, but what I do know is that I plan on continuing to share my story, so that other young people who find themselves lost and feeling alone will know that it's okay and things get better. When you're young, it can often feel like no one understands or cares. However, young girl, young boy... You are not alone! You are still amazing and wonderful. Life gets better, even on the bad days. The only one who can stop you from greatness is YOU. Don't allow people to dictate who you are and what you should do just because you're young. Seek God for yourself and ask for wisdom.

When you feel low, PRAY. When you feel helpless, PRAY. It doesn't always help right away, but it will later. God is always listening, even when it doesn't seem like it. I have to remind myself of this daily. He hears us! Trust and believe!

Everyday won't be sunshine, but you will make it! You got this!

I made it, and so will you!